First off, thanks to all those who commented on my last blog. I was really encouraged by your support. God really used today to show me that I am so not ready for marriage. One of the things Josh Harris mentioned in his book is that, while checking someone out, you should observe how they handle stressful situations. On the flip side, it also means that I need to be able to capably handle situations of extreme stress. Today I had several flights cancelled, delayed, and basically spent $120 and 10 hours of time, to find out I have to wait till tomorrow to go home. Needless to say, I did not handle it well. I was on the verge of tears after the first issue, 1/2 hour into the day. I did not actually burst out crying, thankfully, but I really wanted to. I did discover the it takes about 6 hours of distress for me to blame someone other than myself for something, and then get really pissed off about it.
I am going to pause here to go on a minor rant. When I got distressed I naturally turned to worship music, and one thing I noticed is that it's all about how awesome God it. I know God is awesome, I know He has a plan for everything, I know He weeps with me when I weep, but that doesn't help me when I am distressed. When I am upset, after a long period of distress, I need music that sympathizes with my anger, that justifies it, and then reminds me that God is still with me. After ten hours of extreme frustration and exhaustion, I need more than "Praise you in thie storm". If anyone out there has any suggestions on how to overcome this, or music that fits my needs, please let me know!
All right, I am exhausted and emotionally drained, and probably have to repeat today tomorrow, so I am signing off now rather than turn this into a self-centered rant as opposed to the God-glorifying testimony this is supposed to be. So, goodnight reader land.
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Vent your anger to God... he can take it. Once you've taken captive all that thought/feeling then offer it to Christ and ask him to take it from you. For the tougher issues I go to Renew ministry... which helps to reveal the true thought/issue behind the emotion and then to bring it before Christ. I can tell you about that more if you'd like (and I highly recommend it as it has helped remove many of the roadblocks to listening to and following Christ).
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