As it happens, on further reflection I feel that God wants me to put this on here now. Basically there is one thing in my life, and one thing only, that has the power to put me in a bad mood just by announcing it's prescence. As you may have guessed from my last post, this thing is a guy. Said guy and I have a history, though most of the recent history I regret. This guy makes me question at what point is it okay to hate someone. Jesus strongly preached a teaching of love. Love your neighbor as yourself, if a man asks for your shirt give him your coat too, etc. At the same time there are parts in the New Testament where Jesus becomes irritated at people. I am a sucker for people in need, he is in need, and he takes advantage of it every time. We're basically not speaking, yet whenever he is in trouble he turns to me. This is great, I very much want to help him and see him happy. However, this guy only wants band-aid solutions, and wont let me help him solve the real problem. I'm sure God is using him and this situation specifically to show me something, but at the same time I'm not sure I want to know what it is. I'm not sure that in this case I care more about learning than about avoiding this guy at all costs. There is so much pain in his life, but the ways he wants my help our not ways I can follow. I'm not really sure that this blog has a purpose, certainly not the same as the rest of my posts...but if any of you out in blogger land have suggestions or verses they would be very much appreciated. Pray that I wise up and listen, pray that I accept God's wisdom on what to do. I know He doesn't want me to be hurt, and that's what happens every time I interact with this guy, but maybe He wants me to get to the point where my feelings are above him. I don't know. I don't know what to do next time he IMs me. I don't know how to help him. I don't know how to stop caring about him either...in a purely fraternal/ pitying sort of way. S.O.S.
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First before everything, and this is something I fail to do often, ask God if he is leading you to this person or if you merely want him to get saved.
I hate to tell you this, but God wants us to even love our enemies.
Matthew 5:43-45
"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven.
However, loving someone does not mean always giving them their hearts desire. Like I'm not loving myself if slack off for half the day because the thought of one of my assignments causes me pain. So sometimes you have to trust that God is orchestrating/allowing these things in his life so that he will repent and turn to Him.
Also check out Luke 10:25-37. Use discretion with how close you should be in his life. If being around him causes you to stumble then back off a bit. However, the converse is that some suffering is good because it forces us to rely on God and not ourselves. Check 2 Corinthians 1:3-11
God bless sis... proverbs 15:22
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