Always Have, Always Will

I don't know how many of you out there in blogger land have heard the song Always Have, Always Will by Avalon, but if you haven't you should. I captures my daily attitude really well. I love God. I want to do whatever He wants me to, but at times I still find myself deliberately fighting Him, even though I know it will turn out badly, as it always does. I have heard this song many times before, yet today it really speaks to me. During the weekend I can happily devote my entire focus to God, and I love that time. Nothing is as important as talking to God, especially since I've recently begun devoting my entire Sunday to Him and my life in Him. Sunday is definately the best day of the week for me. During the week however it is a whole different story. Yes, I still talk to Him regularly, read my One Year, have quiet times, prayers, and hang out with my family...but something is always missing. This has bothered me for weeks and I suppose the best answer is school. I don't think of academics as bothering me, but I think thoughts of my classes creep in even when I'm actively procrastinating. Anyway, that's my big thought for today. Now I promised I would clue you in on yesterday. Sunday started normally, up at 9am. I had to print off some sheets for the Parents' Banquet, and I finally remembered to bring the coloring supplies for Stonebrook. Then I went to prayer, which I usually have a hard time with. Early morning plus a dislike of praying out loud is a bad combination. After prayer there was service at SCC. The band played an awesome selection of some of my favorite songs. Then I took over the two and three year old Sunday school for a friend. This is where the good/bad part started. There was a new girl in the class, slightly older than the others. Up until this point all the kids had behaved really well for me. I've been working with them for almost six months, every other month, and I've really enjoyed it. However, this new girl did not want to share at all. About seven times over the course of the 45 minutes I had to break up a minor fight where she wanted another child's toy...she would say "please" then grab it...so at least she was polite. I had never been faced with this situation before so it was slightly awkward, but the session ended with only a few imaginary boo-boos so I guess all's well that ends well. I really appreciated that chance to just grow in God's love. My initial reaction was definitely to make her sit in the corner or something to learn, but God really came through for me. I don't think I got through to her, but God definitely showed me a nicer way to at least begin teaching her. Yay God! After church ended there was the Parents' Banquet to prepare for. I got to slice cheesecakes and put cherry filling on them. Heaven points! Then my grandparents arrived. I hadn't had a chance to see them in a while so it was great getting to visit with them. The banquet ran longer then expected due to a few snafoos. Afterwards I got to wash silverware! I really kind of miss doing the dishes for my family, and I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed washing and singing. Thanks to the snafoo, after finishing I had to go straight towards preparing dinner for family time. I'd expected to have a few hours free, but that is the time I'm mostly likely to "not love God" as a nice way to put it. Since this is no longer anonymous to some people I am not comfortable sharing more than that...but with God's help it will soon disappear anyway. I had been major concerned about not having enough food, but turned out to have an extra two pans of Tuna Wiggle which I sent home with a single male friend. Family time is always a great time of fun and fellowship for me. If you are seeking to know God more I would strongly recommend joining one. They give you a family in Christ, a place to talk about God, share what He's been doing in your life, and shoulder each other's burdens. My emotions immediately afterwards sometimes vary, but I never regret going. That night I got to help a friend with her math homework. I am a math major planning to teach, so any opportunities I get to practice are greatly appreciated. Plus, more heaven points! Heaven points are far from being the only reason I help people, but it never hurts. Serving others on this earth is as close as we can get to serving our Father in Heaven. It allows a tangible connection that I revel in. Well, I am almost officially late for Bible Study on Revelations, so I gotta go. Stay wholly His reader land -LR